If You Really Aren't Out There, I'll Just Wander This World Alone.
I'm not like so many around me seem to be, looking for someone who meets their superficial checklist. Fuck those checklists. I want my soulmate. I want to feel like a whole person.
I Refuse Anything Less... It's scaring me because in that refusal is the possibility of loneliness for a lifetime. I wasn't made for that either. But I absolutely hate dating. I hate meeting men and never feeling interested. I hate everyone around me trying to hook me up with "this really great guy they know" ... It's exhausting, trying so hard not to hurt people's feelings...
Mostly, I hate the fact that I don't see you anywhere. None of them are ever even a glimmer of what my soul needs. The fact that there are so many 'wrong' ones and you're still nowhere... it scares me.
2 comments:
First off, you are a whole person. You are a very accomplished and independent young woman and that is amazing for someone so young.
Don't feel incomplete or lonely. There is no perfect man - but when the right one comes along you'll learn to love those things you thought you wouldn't be able to tolerate. But you also don't NEED a man. It's fine to WANT one, but you will be fine. Just think about all of the great things you've done.
Trish...I know it may seem like hell right now, but he will come along and it will likely be completely out of the blue. You deserve the best and that is exactly what you will receive. I'm sorry it hurts so much right now. You are such a unique and incredible person. Keep holding on :/
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